March 29, 2023
No I’m not comfortable at all, despite every effort made in the direction of becoming so. My higher self understands completely the need to move, not just out of the place I have called home for 2 1/2 years, but the move out of the mummy’s confines. This move to a new environment, one which has rules and contracts and obligations is not something the child in me wishes to deal with. These past 3 months have shown me my dominant personality on a daily basis is the child of those years when I knew love and compassion, laughter and the carefree existence bound by few rules. My adult personality comes out only when necessary and this is perhaps how I find myself in so many difficult situations. Children trust and believe on a scale most adults have forgotten exist. There is an innocence related to my child self which cannot comprehend the adult world she was catapulted into. She does not like the adult world and all its complicate ways of doing and seeing. In her eyes, life is simple, beautiful and wonderful, meant to be loved, respected and enjoyed to the utmost of our ability every day. The adult world is about fear, enclosure, confinement and distrust, something she would rather not face, so for the most part does not. Even those times when she does take a good look at whats happening in the world, there is still that child like simplicity which insists the problems are easily solved. But adults insist on making a labyrinth of choices which cause them to get lost and confused, taking ages to come back to what she thought of in the first place.
I do not have the luxury of most who are happy to remain in ignorance, heads buried in the sand, or turning a blind eye, so choice does not have to fall on their doorstep – better to leave that to the experts kind of attitude. I was raised to understand there is no government in our world which is for the people, decisions made for the good of the people. That is the fantasy world created, you guessed it, by our governments. We chose to go along with their narrative because in North America this means a comfortable lifestyle, at least for the majority. In a third world country (and I do believe Canada now is one), choice is not an option. The people know full well their government does not work in their best interest, hardship is commonplace for the vast majority, so day to day living is appreciated on a very different level than those who have much, therefore have much to lose. Those who do not have much to lose experience reality on a level those in North America cannot understand.
I have been part of a world which allows governments to manipulate, steal, control, murder and sell children for profit. I understand full well just how big a part North American governments play in the world of those less fortunate because I was shown this aspect of a life most are only beginning to witness here. My eyes have been wide open since I was 2 years old – I have only been waiting for enough people to catch up and see what I saw as a child. This is why I have been an island in a sea of people. I have knowledge from experience which is too terrible for mankind to face being part of due to choices made without thought for the cause and effect of those decisions. I have never been allowed to turn a blind eye, however I have buffered my view still biding my time as I wait for others to see what I have always known.
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