Confirmation of My Name January 5, 2003
When I first had the vision of my father naming me Gabriel I had a great deal of trouble accepting this. The name seemed to be for someone important and so much more capable than I am. Although Patrick started using it right away, it took me some years before I felt comfort accepting it myself. Oddly enough for me, it was after Patrick left I began to take possession of my true name.
In this dream I was with a man that reminded me a lot of Patrick, but it wasn’t him. This man was native, younger, and had longer hair. I would say he was my spirit husband, Sapphire.
We were having a conversation when his father came up behind him, wanting to be introduced. Sapphire turned to look at him, about to introduce me as Katherine, but then hesitated, turned to look at me as if making an important decision that would change things for both of us, turning back to his father and introducing me as Gabriel.
It is hard to explain but this was a deeply peaceful moment for me when I seemed to understand I had just been given confirmation this was indeed my true name. I was considering what I saw in his face in that moment as he made his decision to call me Gabriel. At the time of writing out the dream I felt it was a look of sadness, a moment of understanding he was letting go, that he was no longer needed in the same capacity.
As I think about it now I see there is power and strength in remembering my birth name. I cannot be controlled by those men who took me, raped me, tortured and mentally abused me. They cannot touch me again— Sapphire had fulfilled his vital duty, and that is perhaps why he hesitated in his introduction.
Once he told his father my true name it was understood the nature of our life long relationship would change, having fulfilled his role to keep me safe until now. Acknowledging the truth of his intent made it real. I was now able to accept my true name. It is not that he is gone from my life but his role is now different, not the ever present protector he once was, now able to allow some distance between us. I watch for him always, flying above me, feeling his energy before I see him, this invisible thread connecting us always.
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