On this most auspicious day, I am blessed to add to it my own special experience this morning. It has been very cold these past couple of days, the temperature dropping to -29 last night. So of course my heat is not working, pushing me into an uncomfortable situation. One of the interesting thoughts which entered my mind during the past week with all the weather changes, is how important it is for us all to not be comfortable right now. I remembered my fathers message from almost a year ago telling me I was getting too comfortable in my routine. Today as we absorb the news we are now a communist country, a third world country under dictatorship, I have better understanding of his message. When we are comfortable, we ignore what we don’t want to face. The whole country is uncomfortable today, even those who voted for the emergency measures act to continue. I doubt very much they feel safe and secure in their once comfortable lives because they understand there is now real possibility of more severe civil disobedience. The anger stirred up because of the treatment of peaceful lawful protesters has created much animosity.
In the situation now created by the circumstances of the last month, everyone becomes vulnerable, especially those who did nothing to stop it. In a dictatorship, the whims of the leader can mean no one is safe from the constant changing focus of his/her beam. So yes I’m sure they are more than a little concerned about their predicament. And rightfully so. They did not stand up soon enough to stop the ball which began to roll years ago. Even though some were not just trying to save their political skin as Candice Bergen stated about Trudeau, they still hid behind their comfortable lives, accepting raises while we faced more severe poverty. They will have to answer to that – not necessarily from the citizens of this country, but from a much higher power.
I know many are scared and very understandably concerned for what will happen now Trudeau has so much power indefinitely, but this was where we were always going to end up. My concerns from the beginning after arriving back in Canada, was being where we are now, because I felt it was inevitable back then and said so many times. I also voiced my fear of having to go through childhood experiences again, so yes I have been afraid of this. So it was strange, yet not surprising last night after confirming the answer to the vote, I was completely calm, happy. It began to sink in how once we accept whatever situation we are in, we lose our fear and just begin to deal with the issues at hand. This happened while in Ecuador as I realized I did not have much food when they shut the country down for the pandemic. There were police on the roads stopping everyone and asking for papers if they were a tourist. This was a big concern for me as my visa had expired, so I stayed at the hostel. Once I accepted the severity of my circumstances, I just found peace with understanding I could eat less each day, rest more and make what I had last longer. Not the first time in my life I had to do something similar, so I prayed, drew and wrote about my experiences. When we do this with love in our intentions, small miracles always happen. Losing fear is the key ingredient to being able to do something like this with love because they can’t live in the same room – one has to go. So yesterday once I finished writing my story for the blog, I completely let go of the anger and frustration, which meant letting go of fear as those emotions are intertwined, can’t be separated. If you pay attention, you will accept when we are happy, our hearts full of love, there is no fear. When we are angry or fearful, we cannot find the love, it’s one or the other. I went to bed with so much love in my heart.
This morning due to the severe cold, I woke up around 4:30 shivering under the covers. Normally I am too warm, but this morning after 2 days without heat the apartment was very cold. Curling up into a ball, I got warm enough to fall asleep again. When I woke the next time it was to see the beautiful patterns of angel wings moving around my room. It was as though my closed eyelids were transparent allowing me to witness this beautiful sight. I tried to hang onto them but could not and actually fell asleep again under their protection. This time when I woke, with eyes still closed, I saw all these illuminated hands reaching towards me as I reached back from under my covers. I was reminded of the famous Da Vinci painting of the hands, finger pointed towards each other. There was so much white light, I could not see beyond the hand most prominent, which I felt was my father. I instinctively knew my mother was also with me, so there was this amazing understanding I was completely safe and must trust this is so. I fell asleep again, at last warm enough to have a deep sleep for a few hours. It was quite magical really, my feeling to share it only to inspire others to trust in the universe, the angels and spirits which are always with us. Fear will not help us, only the deep love which connects us to the higher energies.
While I believe the Angel wings were present time, the hands were a memory shown in the theta time in that moment as you wake but are unable yet to be fully conscious. As a child in a household where there was no love, only anger and fear, this moment would have been vitally important. It is my impression this happened shortly after my father died, giving me comfort after seeing his burial. The grandmothers were the other hands reaching for me, encouraging me to stay strong despite the desperate feeling of loss and loneliness. My mother’s presence was felt, but she was not reaching me through the spirit world in this way because she was still alive.
I woke up with the understanding I have been waiting for this terrible situation my whole life. Perhaps this is why I became so calm yesterday, knowing I have to wait no more. It is often the anticipation of an event which causes us so much anxiety, once we are in it we find a way to deal with whatever happens. I’m not really sure what to expect, but there is definitely a sense of completion which is necessary for me to find peace.
An image came to mind today thinking about the total mess Canada is in. Seeing the brutal truth of what is happening being played out like déjà vu, I suddenly saw JT as the yin (black) with me as the yang (white). Kind of a simple visual of what our fathers also represented in their lifetime. I’m not say my father or myself were perfect or unblemished by bad actions, but our overall intentions have always come from the heart. JT and his father are definitely the opposite, their motivations ego based. I was left with the impression JT was not a person who grew up with affection or love, he is a very cold person. I wonder if he knows about me…..
JT has been trained from early childhood to take his place in the world as we see him today. His father brought me here as a child, he also took part in my torture. We are bound by the same situation of our childhood, we are here now facing a similar one.
I was also trained from birth to take my place as people see me today. The difference is they do not really see me yet, maybe never will. I was brought up in the shadows, while JT was brought up in the spotlight. I have spent my whole life waiting, yet hoping this day would never come.
I have often wondered why, while people listen to me, they do not hear me. They’ve read my story, heard my warnings, listened to my experiences, yet they have not ever really heard what I’m saying. Everything I do falls before it really has a chance to succeed, for every step I go forward, I often take another back. In truth I have often been hurt or offended by this lack of attention because deep inside I know there is relevance to my story. As I watch what is happening in this country, listening to all the commentaries and shocked reactions, I see still the same lack of understanding. People are really only seeing the first layer of this agenda, they cannot conceive of how long it has been in play because we have always been a country of freedom. This particular act has been in play since my fathers story was relevant. I was not supposed to survive…….
If I take away the hurt and sorrow of all that has passed in my life, as I am trying to do this morning (this post is being written over two days) then perhaps all the perceived sabotaged experiences were not to hurt me but protect me. It has been vital for me to remain a secret, living a simple life in the shadows. However one can get caught in a loop of disappointment intentionally after so many failures, which means I am also responsible. Not understanding yet the full story of my own life meant this loop would continue with my own perception of failure. My mother did what she could to protect me in ways not clearly understood for so long. In my mind, she put me in a “do not touch” zone, much like she did for herself. The woman knew how, and had the means to ensure she could cover her tracks as well as mine then have the strength to survive in a cruel world with as much dignity as anyone in her position could.
If you can accept my story, which I know is not easy based on the people I claim to be born to, then these are the connections you need to acknowledge. And before you dismiss it as impossible or crazy, just imagine even for a second what it means if it’s true. It means My birth unites politically during a very unstable time in history, Argentina, Cuba, the United States and Canada. What would the consequences have been had North Americans known? I survived The Dirty Wars of Argentina, can I survive the Trudeau wars?
Che Guevara – father (deceased) age 39
Aleida – half sister
Hilda – half sister (deceased) age 39
Ceilia- half sister
Camillo- half brother
Ernesto – half brother
Jackie Kennedy – mother (deceased)
JFK Jr. – half brother (deceased) age 39
Caroline – half sister
Pierre Trudeau – conspirator, reason I came to Canada as a child (deceased)
Justine Trudeau – son of Castro (at the very least he was a strong influence in his life)
As Castro betrayed my father, ostensibly using me with the help of Pierre Trudeau, is it not interesting for the children of these two men to now be living in the same country, yet not in acknowledgement publicly? Even more so that we are very much like our fathers, each of us trained from early childhood to take similar roles as our parents. Yin Yang, one trained for all that betrays mankind, one trained to work in the light. Justin had his two father figures while I had the grandmothers and my fathers spirit.
I have come to this wonderful place of acceptance, able to share my stories publicly in this manner, knowing they are not really being absorbed fully by most if any, reading them. This allows me to release, learn and accept my own story which has been far from easy. The process has been fulfilling as I put forth the truth hidden in plain sight simply because no one really has the focus to see it. This is not an insult, it is indeed an impossible story to digest as it incorporates so many important people from our culture, whom most never conceived the truth about. Like everyone famous, people have an image they allow the public to see and then they have the truth which they live out of the prying eyes of the world. We do much the same in our simple lives on a smaller scale as we must often live one way in order to keep our jobs, then relax behind the comfort of our homes. Only those who live with us see the many faucets of our character. As it should be…..
Freedom comes from acceptance, loss of fear and the courage to live our own truth.
*** as this story has been written over 3 days now, there is news which must be shared. Last evening our prime minister announced before his senate could embarrass him publicly, the revoking of the emergency act. While on the surface this does seem like very good news, we understand the damage already done will have long term affects. Also there is so much more to this entire situation which has yet to be released, may never be released, simply because as I said earlier in the post this goes back almost a century in the making.
He has also continued vilifying the truckers further and thereby preventing them from working, which of course does nothing to help our supply chain issues. But then this is intentional, part of controlling our nation to ensure compliance for the much more serious aspect of this plan to unfold. There is so much more to come, we must brace ourselves, then let go of the emotions attached to the actions as they will not serve us. Remember love cannot exist in the same room as hate, anger or fear at the same time.
https://www.rebelnews.com/ontario_shuts_down_39_trucking_businesses_involved_with_freedom_convoy
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