My Sweater September 18, 2002
On June 20, 2002 I dreamt about wearing this sweater while saying goodbye to my mother.* This is an important reference, making a connection which explains the emotional attachment I felt while having this dream.
I was thinking of Josh, Colby, and Rheann while I was looking at some of their old baby clothes. I picked up a sweater, yellow with a white yoke but couldn’t remember this ever belonging to my children. I suddenly burst into tears as though it was an important treasure. I actually woke myself up with my sobbing, tears running down my face.
I believe this was the sweater I was wearing the day my birth mother said good- bye to me at the airport. At the time I did not realize the possibility I might never see her again. Seeing the sweater now allowed me the opportunity to cry for the loss I did not understand then. Powerful.
*see Airport Good-bye, Chapter VI, page 185
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