Five years ago I was preparing to leave Canada, never return. I believed I was going to get closure at last for a life of secrets and lies. I was scared, happy anxious and excited believing there would be an easier road ahead of me now that the decision was Read more
July 27, 2023 Even though I know they are always watching me, it still becomes unsettling to realize how vulnerable I am, especially because there are few who could accept this aspect of my life. Not in the normal sense of the word, I am vulnerable because they can enter Read more
July 14, 2023 How amazing to consider the idea my daughter was brought into my life simply so I could wake up and face the truth of my past. Then there is my youngest son who triggered my memories of my father as I often referred to the likeness before Read more
July 10, 2023 The day began with a bit of a surprise as the old window I was preparing to paint yesterday fell over, 2 panes of glass shattering – seemingly symbolic of my shattered spirit which Grama Grizzly explained I had when we met. There was a nice breeze, Read more
April 5, 2023 Moving day has come and gone. It was a difficult day as there was a snow storm which arrived Sunday morning early. It was a wet snow, the kind which turns to ice immediately with each foot step. The stairs were a definite concern, a bit dangerous Read more
March 29, 2023 No I’m not comfortable at all, despite every effort made in the direction of becoming so. My higher self understands completely the need to move, not just out of the place I have called home for 2 1/2 years, but the move out of the mummy’s confines. Read more
March 19, 2023 This morning I woke to the remnants of a dream where I received an unexpected gift. In this very vivid dream, I was in my apartment talking with a friend who was visiting, when I heard the doorbell. I was curiously nervous because I don’t normally get Read more
March 8, 2023 It has been years since this has happened to me, this waking up at 3:00 in the morning with a story already written in my mind which has to be done right away so as not to lose any of the precious information. Not since lockdown in Read more
3 years ago on Mach 12th, I wrote the following: “……..Labels – why do we have to label people, categorize them, pigeon hole them? This reminded me of being in high school and all the years I was told I was “skinny”. Back then I wondered why it was an Read more
Looking Back January 24, 2023 Looking back is not the same as turning back to what’s comfortable. Looking back is necessary in order to remember where we do not wish to find ourselves again. Because of the new situation in the space below me which is a retail location, I Read more