Memories creep up without warning May 27, 1996
While I was lying in bed this morning I fell into a kind of trance. My eyes were closed but I was aware of my surroundings, so I knew I was not asleep. I believe this would be considered some kind of vision because I was aware, but could not open my eyes or stop what I was seeing and feeling.
I saw my hand on someone else’s chest. I was pushing his chest away with my hand and I was asking why? Then I was yelling it out loud. At the same time I could feel a very strong tingling in my pelvic area. It was a burning sensation and it was very strong, so uncomfortable. I had the same kind of feeling across my chest. I kept trying to move, to get away, but my right arm was numbāI was unable move.
Then suddenly the spell was broken, I could open my eyes, move my arms, and I rolled onto my left side. I was released from that moment in time, a physical memory of a time I was raped. As always with this type of experience, I felt the residual of the pain and struggle as though it were recent, carrying the significance of it with me throughout the day.
Healing time, this is all that can make the feelings of each violation ease.
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gabriel_mskk1q3k · May 29, 2019 at 5:32 pm
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